i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
— Joseph Heller, Catch-22
“ I love sleep. My life tends to have a tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know?
They say “home is where your heart is”…well my heart is scattered across the map.
“ The earth is speaking to us, but we can’t hear because of all the racket our senses are making. Sometimes we need to erase them, erase our senses. Then–maybe–the earth will touch us. The universe will speak. The stars will whisper. I’m erased. I’m gone. I’m nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I’m not outside my world anymore, and I’m not really inside it either. The thing is, there’s no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain.
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Jerry Spinelli, Stargirl
